Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Added another

Tomorrow is going to be so difficult for me. I have been with my dad since March 24th. 2 1/2 weeks away from my home and family. Sure the time and reason for me being here sucks but its also way different from home life. Dads house is quiet, nothing was demanding my attention and the only needs I had to meet were my own or sometimes dad. When the boys came to visit Thursday to Sunday it was a big smack in the face. It will also be hard to leave my dad. He even said it will be hard coming home to an empty house. I feel like I'm being pulled two directions.  Dad's house deck in pic, peaceful  quiet, so unlike my house.  There is even a small river in the background.

Let me explain. I am only child but my parents were easy. We never had the relationship where I needed to check on them, call often, or make sure they did such and such. I feel with moms passing I now feel like I added another child. That may be harsh because dad is perfectly fine, semi healthy at 65 and capable. But still I have added another worry to my worry plate. He lives so remote, has 2 big dogs and few friends. What happens if one of the dogs trip him and he breaks a leg. I have suggested a life alert or something.

Exercise - I will admit it here, when I had the infection in my arm last November it scared the crap out of me. I stopped all intentional exercise from that point. I had some days here and there but nothing consistent. After mom passed and during my 2 1/2 weeks at Dad's I walked 2 to 3 hilly miles at least every other day. I honestly thought I would have a hard time but I didn't. My fitness has somewhat remained.  I seriously thought I would be super out of shape.  I am pleasantly surprised that its not as bad.

1 comment:

  1. Amy
    I can't even imagine what you are feeling with the loss of your Mother and worry about your Dad. Don't let that get in the way of your goal to lose weight. You got off the track, understandably, for a little bit, but you can get right back on. Call me anytime if you need to talk. Hopefully your Dad will get the med-alert