I am in crisis mode when it comes to my weight. I am teetering somewhere between 204 and 208. I feel gross and pissed that I gained 20 pounds in a year, plus. I’m really not looking forward to bathing suit season or the river trip next week with a bunch of skinny bitches.
In May I hit my 39th birthday. I asked my parents to pay for a few months of my Kettlebell boot camp classes. Sure, I could workout on my own but right now my mindset is not in the place to self motivate.
I've mentioned before and showed that I mostly lost weight by eating sensible, clean and mostly whole foods. I tried a few different routes here and there but never any traditional diets (weight watchers, etc). No packaged or fake foods were in my life. I still don’t use any artificial sweeteners or sodas. No high fructose corn syrup either. My ultimate goal would be to be an intuitive eater.
But … all the old habits and issues came back over the last year along with the weight. (Duh!). Portion control went out the door. Making correct food choices, gone. Not bingeing – gone. Regularly exercising – not consistent. What I miss most is the level of satisfaction I had with good clean food and smaller portions. That satisfaction hasn’t returned.
When I asked my parents to pay for the exercise class it opened the door for them to offer more help. While visiting over Memorial Day weekend I was asked if I considered looking into a weight loss program. I was told they would like to pay for it. Well that’s a smack upside my head. I told them I would think about it.
Fast forward a week or so and my mom calls telling me they are ”serious about helping me out and please look into it.”
I am at a big impasse, unable to move forward. I made 1 call today to a nutritionist that runs a program at my Dr’s office. There is another program I want to go to an orientation meeting.