Thursday, May 31, 2012
My cart contains almonds, cashews, dark chocolate almonds, chicken breasts (1.88 a lb), chicken tenderloins, pork spareribs, avocados, tomatoes, tri color bell peppers, apples, onions, carrots, eggplants, cheese, a wine for book club.
Sorry for the absence. Just back in town from visiting my parents. it's a ton of work driving 330 miles by myself with 2 kids.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Today is my 39th birthday.
Today is the day I face my current weight and tell it like it is.
Today is the day I make some changes.
Today is the day I stop, refocus and start anew.
Today my weight is 204.4.
Today I am sick with a cold which means I can’t visit my parents this weekend. Too risky.
Today is a new day.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
I am still here, still reading everyone’s blogs.
Life is beating me down at the moment and I am trying to claw my way back up. I could go on and on about what is beating me down, but really do you want to read that, I think not. Some of the highlights are: the mess in my house, my 8 year old not listening and his drama (I know we have a long way to go but it needs correcting now so we
he can survive later), my body, my food choices, cancer, my cherub faced 3 year old tornado, money …. life in general.
I have been talking to someone lately. I like her, we do some work but I’m not sure it’s enough at the moment. I think I need more. I am not sure what the more is at the moment.
My weight is basically maintaining. I am frustrated that last summer I was 15 pounds lighter. I feel it in my bathing suits and all my clothes. I have been avoiding my clothes because they make me uncomfortable. I pull out the looser, easier to wear stuff all the time. I am hating it.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
The exercise was intense and exhausting. My body was beat down.
Was I solid with the exercise - yes minus one extra recovery day because of no car. With the strict food program - sadly no. Food consistency is a big big issue for me. I have texture and taste issues. Imagine my results had I been on track with the food.
I am back on the exercise horse. Now the food.
Aorry I don't have much more I had like 4 hours of sleep and my head is mush.
HELP! - Do any iPhone users know how to read the blogs your're following on your iPhone. I use Google Reader on my home computer where I can read all the posts from all the blogs I follow. I would love to do this on my phone, I don't know how.
Sunday, May 6, 2012
I planted Anaheim peppers, 3 color bell peppers, pumpkins, zucchini, eggplant, 4 types of tomatoes, cilantro, chives, green onions, strawberries and we have a bunch of mystery growth.
I hand also been working on other parts of the yard. In fact I just finished mowing. I never mow. The little one has made it hard. He has pulled up the veggies more than once and has been removing the buckets too. Sorry for the crappy picture.
Thursday, May 3, 2012
I wish I could say some fancy tropical location – sadly NO!
I have been busy just being.
I recently and quickly lost 3 followers. I am down to 53, I’ve never had a lot of followers. I think it takes time and effort to cultivate it. I don’t have time for the effort
It made me a bit sad but the reality is – have I been writing, been interesting, been successful – again sadly no. I am thrilled beyond words to know there is people out there reading my blog. I hope someone, somewhere might benefit from something I do or say at some point. It gives untold accountability and a sense of community. I wish I had more time to cultivate blogging relationships thru commenting and replying to comments. Know this – If I follow your blog I AM reading it. I have noticed a trend of limited posts from other bloggers. BUT – In the end this blog is for me. It’s an extension of my brain - ha
Part of my lack of blogging is many fold. Working out 5 days a week, some at 5 am is kicking my lily white butt. My body is beat up. Life seems to be running on a busier pace lately. I am working on getting my 3 year old out more with his peers. I haven’t had anything I felt was interesting or incite full to share. I haven’t been successful with true weight loss in a long time and I feel shame and guilt. Let me spin this a different way. I am successful with exercise. I am successful with maintaining my weight. I am successful with losing inches. I am successful with my water. I am strong and fit. I kick butt in my classes. I secretly hope my trainer reads this and confirms for me – he’s not one to hand out compliments or atta boys.
At times I have to remind myself I am a mom, with 2 active boys, one being a toddler, crazy hubby schedule and I have my home (all inclusive) to care for. I may not be working but I work my ass off. I won’t go into the mommy wars here. We all, regardless of situations, work our asses off. Even through I may not be seeing a whole lot dropping on the scale, I am doing it. It being – exercising consistently, dropping inches, seeing dr’s, taking my medicine, caring for my family, my home, my health, my mental state (seeing a therapist), my mom, and so on
Stick with me!