|Please ignore the backfat|
I didn't intend to take a 6 day break from my blog. It just happened. We are down a car and in the process of figuring out what the hell to do. My weight is great, I will update later.
|Please ignore the backfat|
Admittedly this challenge is not as bad as I made it out to be.
Weird thing is that every night I get super hot when I am sleeping. Trainer says it my body saying “hell yes”.
I’ve dropped about 3 pounds since Monday.
I was exhausted all afternoon and night on Tuesday, I went from 5 am on non stop, no my usual MO. Hubby had to work OT until late night so I had no help. The tornado of a toddler deicided he didn’t want to nap, he wanted to mark all the walls with a marker, pull out half of my newly planted vegetables, hit his brother, and on and on. I lost my cool more than once. The house is a mess and its really getting to me but its nearly impossible to do anything with the tornado around. Seriously he pulled out my plants in a matter of 3 mins.
The no grain day (tue) was fine. I made a new yummy. I cut up some asparagus in small pieces. Sauté in water in a cover pan, when water is gone I added some butter, cracked 1 whole egg and then some egg white from a carton. Scramble then I topped it with Tastefully Simple’s Seasoned salt. I loved it so much I made it twice. Sure I could have skipped the butter, but I didn’t.
My body hurts. Time to pick up some Epson salts for my bath.
I did get upset the other day that my measurements (arms, chest, hip, waist) are the same as another blogger, who weights 75 pounds more than me. The major difference is that my thighs are 11 inches smaller per side (18 in), calves too. Again I am humpty dumpty, big on top, small on the bottom.
Taking control. Regain your sense of control and ease the feeling of utter helplessness by being proactive in other areas of your life. Keep yourself busy with other things. Be positive and have an impact. Exert control in other areas of your life and if you can have a positive impact on others.I cannot control the situation with my mom. I can be proactive and control what I eat and my exercise. I can clean my act up and get off this pity food wagon I have been on for far too long. I can give mom the Gift I know deep in my heart I want to give. I will keep myself busy with weight loss, exercise and fixing my home. I can continue the work with my weight loss group and maybe have a positive impact on others.
Weight = 201.2
Loss = NA
Loss for 2012 = –3.6
Total Loss = –30.8
Emotion = all over the place
Fine I will weight in. I will admit that last Tuesday I was at 203.8. Insane 7 pound gain in one week. Vicious food cycle here – I am eating emotionally, I feel crappy from the eating, the food choices cycle cravings for more crap and I continue to eat and feel crappy. I am really low right now. Super low.
I am on a fence right now about my blog. I am trying to decide where I want to go with it right now. I need to process if I really should be spending time on it in the first place. It take a lot of time to post. Time where my toddler can get into trouble, which usually means more clean up time for me. Stay tuned, I have yet to make a decision, I am working it out.
Today is a good and bad day. Tonight I will be celebrating my 11th anniversary. My hubby made the plans which is a very very rare thing. I have no clue what we are doing. It’s nice to hand over control sometimes. I wish I could do it more often. Sometime today my mom will be getting her CAT scan results from last week. Honestly I am not trying to be negative here but I know the results will not be positive. The realistic scientist in me knows this.
Want proof of how low I am. I cried 2 times writing this post. Crazy!!!! I am a bit sleep deprived today.