All last week I was dealing with disappointment.
I am bummed that my walking partner and I haven't been able to get the miles in. I am really bummed that my partner may pull out of the the race outright. I am not going to push her into something she doesn’t want to do. It’s not my style. She has to make the decision on her own if she is going to do the race. I want her to do it becasue I think she can.
I am really disappointed in hubby’s work and him. For over 6 months I planned to go away for a scrapbooking weekend in the mountains at a beautiful B and B. I have been wanting to go to this place for 5 years. I’m paid in full and its in 3 weeks. So lets back track to November. I email hubby a list of dates that he needs to take off so I can attend this retreat. His incorrect understanding of department policies was that he can’t request time off before 4 weeks in advance. Flash forward to this weekend. He CAN”T get the fricking time off. There is too many officers taking the same time off and there is also 2 people in his area on admin leave (that anther stressor here I can’t get into). I am trying very hard to not be pissed at him. He was WRONG about the requesting time off policy. He could have requested the time off in Nov or even before that. He is taking the issue up the chain but there is a BIG chance I will have to cancel my weekend, lose $300 and not get the break I have desired for a LONG LONG time.
Add to this, the toddler is sick and I am too. Not to mention I am disappointed in myself for not getting the miles in and not walking without my partner. Why do I let other peoples actions dictate my own actions? I should have walked without her. I am a magnate for other peoples emotions too.
So why does disappointment = binge for me. Saturday, in the thick of my disappointment, I binged on popcorn at the movies and later in the evening I ate 6 Hi buns (red light food for me). I haven’t binged in over a month.
How do you deal with disappointment in a healthy way?