My utter lack of blog writing and reading has a direct relationship to my lack of effort with my journey. Denial may be a long river but sometimes it can be an easy river to navigate. On the other hand I have been busy. Steadily busy. Although am I making myself busy in order to swim in Denial again?
My weight is roughly 199, same place it been for a long time. I have seen the wrong side of 200 way to many times for comfort. I did drop down to 196 with a 4 day show of excellence with my diet. As for my October goals - I had a week where I was slipping; eating later, forgetting my meds / vits and not getting enough water but most of the month I have been on track. Except with the weight goal oh course.
My training - I am taking a break from formal kettlebell classes for multiple reasons. I have a kettlebell at home but it still sitting in the same place. I have been focusing on the walk/ run training for my half marathon in January. I have been training with a friend, same person who is joining me in the race. Problem is that when she flakes, I flake. Wrong idea. There is no reason why I can’t go on without her. I have always been easily influenced by others.
I have been in the excuse mode of weight loss. I am telling you know it is absolutely the wrong place to be and if you ever find yourself here – GET OUT!!!! For example my head thinks – today I have a potluck so I CAN”T eat right today, why bother. WRIONG WRONG WRONG.