Friday, April 29, 2011

5? Friday 4/29

1. If you could buy any car, money not an option, what would it be?
I am really not into cars and honestly don’t really know types, models, etc.  If I were to go for a family car then a super loaded Chevy Tahoe.  Loaded with all the gadgets and gizmos.  For just me a sporty, fast, red convertible loaded with a invisibly cloak to avoid getting a ticket..

2. What was your worst first date ever?
I honestly can’t think of one.  I wasn’t much of a dater and between high school and pre marriage hubby at 26, I didn’t have any “formal” dates.  Shit that is pathetic to say.

3. How old were you when you fell in love for the first time?
Way too young.  But was it real love?  Doubt it.  I was probably around 14.

4. When was the last time you reconciled your checkbook?
Hubby’s job.  He does it weekly.  I used to do the bills and checkbook but he is super involved with the finances so I gave it back to him.  I don’t touch it with a 10 foot poll now, gotta delegate and trust the delagatee will get the job done.

5. If you were going to fashion a "Wanted" Ad for a best friend, how would you word it
Wanted – married mom with young kids, great listener and willing sharer.  Understanding and willing to deal with crazy is a must.  I will give you the shirt off my back if you need it but understand I may not always be able to give you my time but you are always in my thoughts.  Skills needed are: able to deal with a complainer and over sharer, crazy hubby hours, ….. – this ? is hard to answer eloquently.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Bad Binge

I just had a 1100 calorie 176g carb binge.

I just ate 11 Hi sweet buns.  Not 1 or 2 but 11.  Ridiculous.  Bread my downfall.

I think its time in my journey to start investigating my emotional ties to food and my binging.  Any book recommendations?

More later.  I am off to kettlebells to undo some damage.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Weekly Weigh In 4/26/11

Weight = 186.8
Loss = –0.4

I honestly thought the weight would be lower.  I did have a heavy dinner last night and that may play an effect.  Considering how I have been eating most of the month I am surprised its not 200.  I am getting really really good at maintenance :-)

We are all finally back to normal and normal schedule.  

Last night was my first day back to formal exercise in a week and a half.  It was a kick ass work out but I was on fire.  All my moves were smooth.  Loved the burpee swings.  The killer was the 2 kettlebell swing.  52 pound swinging between my legs, crazy, I felt like I was going to fall over.  You know a sign of a good work is when you have to peel off your loose fitting exercise clothes.

I am going to try my best to get as close to my April goal of 180 by next Tuesday.   Lofty, yes but I think a serious week will do me and my weight some good.  I need to buy a bathing suit really soon.

Monday, April 25, 2011

A Peek into My Crazy

I have been thinking about making a vision board.  You know one of those things Oprah is always talking about.

The type A, perfectionist in me is thinking -  ok so I need to Google vision boards.  What kind of material do I use, how will I adhere the stuff?  Where will I put it?  I want it to be nice and look good.  How do you make one?  I have to make it look good.  What is my purpose or the purpose of the board (Google again)?  the pictures have to be just right.  Where do I get the pictures and quotes.  What kind of pictures and quotes do I use?

The defeatist in me is thinking – I don’t have time to go buy a cute board or put it together.  Screw it, why bother yet another thing I can’t do for myself.

Crazy – sure a bit but aren’t we all in some form or another.

Stay tuned to see if I make a vision board.

Do you have a vision board?  How did you make it.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

A Clothing Paradox

I finally managed to add some new, better fitting, clothing pieces to my seriously lacking wardrobe.  Even got the girls covered in a D down from a DDD+.  The bra shopping was the only time I stepped into Lane Bryant (big girl store 14+).  I no longer want to buy clothes from there but they have great bras and I am still limited on bra purchasing selection (40D).  The rest of my clothes are from Wal-Mart and Old Navy (L, 12, XL) from the regular women’s section.  I still need bigger tops for the girls and the belly.

My “house clothes” are huge and my new clothes are fitted.

In my “house clothes” and older (bigger) exercise clothes  I feel skinny.  I feel all my smaller parts and pieces.  I shimmy and shake and feel great.

In my new clothes I feel fat.  I feel my tummy sticking out.  I am self conscious of how I look and I am always checking to make sure my tummy is covered.  The waist band is tight on my tummy, not in love with that feeling.

How can one person feel so completely different?  How do you feel in your more fitting wardrobe?

Friday, April 22, 2011

Five ? Friday 4/22, etc

Trying something new to keep it fresh and fun around here.

1. What is your favorite Easter tradition?
Hubby and I were raised in non-religious households.  We are still trying to figure out our paths.  Easter is one of those that were seriously lack in any traditions.  I dye the eggs with the kids and usually tag along with my friends family to do a egg hunt and gathering.  This year it’s just me and the kids (hubby works) and with all the sickness, I haven’t done anything

2. Are you a "shower" or a "long, hot bath" kind of person?
Shower for cleaning, hot bath for pre-bed relaxing and reading.  Sometimes hot bath required for muscle fatigue from exercise.

3. Can you parallel park and if so when is the last time you did it?
Yes, 90% of the time I am great at it.  I think I did it last week.

4. What is your favorite Easter candy?
Nothing is a must.  I like the bubble gum eggs but it hurt my jaw to chew.  Cadbury’s are good but super rich.

5. Easter: do you go all out with the Easter Bunny or focus on the religious part of the holiday?
Refer to question 1.  We have no decor and I buy a small gift.

Sickness update – All 4 family members had the stomach flu.  Problem is the 2yo can’t seem to get rid of it.  He is has been sick since Sat night.  I have been to the Dr. twice, nothing I can do except make sure he stays hydrated.  He is also cutting his 2yr molars, all 4 of them.  He is a crab ass.  My hats off to any mom with a kid who has a serious or continuous illness.  I am losing my marbles with just this week.  I don’t know how those mom’s do it.  I guess if it came down to it I could did deep.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Anniversary Party Pics

Our 10 year anniversary party was awesome.

We had our wedding pictures and albums on display.  Comments to hubby “you look older”.  Comments to me “you look great, better than before”.  10 years ago I was about 200 pounds but exercise was NOT a regular part of my life as it is now.  The food I put into my system is far better than 10 years ago.  I wore my wedding dress and then changed into a more flattering dress about an hour later. 

wedding dress more flattering dress

For comparisons – 10 years ago

10 yrs ago

You may have noticed I only post pics of myself.  I want to be very respectful of the privacy of others, especially my kids and husband.  I wish we lived in a world where I didn’t have to be careful, but unfortunately that is not reality.  I would love to show you pics of my munchkins, they are adorable.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Weekly Weigh In 4/19/11

Weight = 187.2
Loss = –1.0

I have the stomach flu.  Started last night.  I feel like crap.  Hopefully I will be back up to speed on Wednesday.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Plan Derailment

I can go with the flow but on the other hand I am a scheduler and planner.  Big kid is on spring break so the plan is to head to Nana and PopPop’s so hubby can stay home and get some big “honey do’s” done without us (namely the toddler) in the way.  Plus we get to relax up in the mountains.  I also planned to go to my trainer’s Super Sunday class.  I had a sitter lined up and some post class errand plans.

SORRY not gonna happen

Last night and all night my little one (toddler, baby whatever he is my baby but he is over 2) puked.  He didn’t stop until 4am.  He got sick again this at 8 am too.  I canceled the sitter at 11:30 pm last night when we were already on round 6 of puking.  He is so so right now, clingy.  Not sure what this is and not sure if it’s going to spread throughout the family.  I have a boatload of laundry to do since baby has no aim.

I really wanted to go to the Super Sunday class.  It is only once a month and apparently fun, I’ve never been.  I need to push right now.  I am not on track and my weight is up.  I was also looking forward to some kid free errands.

I called the parents and cancelled the trip.  I can’t risk my parents getting sick.

I feel like the walking dead right now.  Dangerous state to be in with my weight.  Time to snuggle up to some Elmo (whoo hoo).

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Spring All Around

I have already spent a good part of my morning trying to wrestle a toddler who is bound and determined to be naked (no diaper).  Naked tushies is a sure sign of spring.

This week we started our garden.  We have a ton of space that I don’t think we use efficiently.  I want us to get to the point where we garden year round.  We live in Southern California, so it should be possible.  This year we are starting with mature plants instead of seeds.  We had luck with some seeds in the the past (tomatoes, cucumbers, pumpkins, squash) but not all (eggplants, bell peppers).  Hubby and I are major novices with gardening.

Pic #1 is Anaheim chilies – too many in one area, my humble opinion
Pic #2 still to plant – yellow peppers and eggplant
Pic #3 lots of space or dirt pit for boys
Pic #4 tomatoes and eggplant

Anaheim chilis still to go so much space eggplant and tomatoes

In pic #1 you can see that hubby covered the area with grass clippings.  I guess it acts as weed control.  Hubby also likes to use containers to assist with watering and again weed control.  We ran out of containers to use.

I am off to work on my front yard.  Time to mow, weed, trim and put in new plants.

Friday, April 15, 2011

The Next Moment

Ever feel like all you are doing is slightly pausing from the last “thing” only in the next breath gearing up for the next “thing”.  On top of that your are exhausted from the last “thing”.

Lately that's is all I feel like I am doing.  I’m always working on the next thing coming up.  Rarely enjoying the moment.  Always steps ahead.  The other day I took my boys for a nature walk.  I had trouble just enjoying the moment and taking the time.  I was thinking about the To Do’s and the Have To’s.

Big boy El Diablo

I have been busy the last 2 weeks.  Very busy.  For me busy is not good for my weight.  It is clearly apparent with my lack of blogging, lack of tracking food, lack of thought and the bloated poochy tummy I have now.  I have also been lacking on other things, like big boys homework or Boy Scout rocket.  Bad move mommy.

My trainer mentions I need to learn to meditate.  It should help with my MAJOR tmj issues I have from clenching my teeth.  I can’t got to the bathroom alone, how the hell would I get a chance to meditate.  More on this topic later.

Do you feel the same or are you able to disconnect the brain?

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Weekly Weigh In 4/12/11 & Weekend Recap

Weight = 188.2
Loss = +1.6

Considering the last 5 days or so, nearly 2 pound gain isn't bad.  Sorry I was MIA last week, so much going on.

I spent the tail end of last week rushing the get my house cleaned and all my ducks in a row for the Anniversary party.  My parents offered to have us stay the night away so I had to make sure everything was taken care of before we left.  You all get where I am coming from.  My son had a baseball game the same night as the party too.  I didn’t exercise wed thru mon.  I managed 2 brief walks on Sunday and Monday.  Kettlebell class is going to hurt tonight.

The party was amazing.  To explain, we had a cocktail party on the same boat we were married on 10 years ago.  Drinks, appetizers and a DJ was the basic plan.  About 35 friends joined us in the festivities.  I started out wearing my wedding dress.  A wonderful friend modified the dress for me to a cocktail length.  About 45 min into the party I put on a much more flattering dress.  I don’t have the good pictures yet, so I will post them asap.  We danced, drank and partied all night.  We partied so hard that we barely noticed the thunderstorm going on right on top of our well covered heads
The next morning hubby and I had ham and cheese croissants on the beach and headed to our cooking class.  The theme of my eating on Saturday was CARBS.  The class was on specialty breads – pretzels, bagels, English muffins and pitas.  The bagels and pitas, were cool.  English muffins are too difficult and the pretzels were blah.  I walked out of the class feeling like the Pillsbury dough boy.  For dinner I had a delish baked potato.  My calves were in pain from the dancing.
Sunday hubby went back to work but I continued with the eating.  I attended a wonderful tea with some great ladies.  Tea with all the yummy stuff - sammies, scones, and desserts.  I ate but not overate.  Big difference in my world.

More later, Hubby needs some attention.  It is our Saturday :-)

Monday, April 11, 2011

Second Time a Charm

Welcome to round 2.  My friends and I are trying to win a lotto system to get into the Nike Women’s 1/2 marathon.  We tried last year and didn’t get in.


I am not a runner but I think this would be both a great goal to work towards and a great time with some girlfriends.

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Weekly Weigh In 4/5/11

Weight = 186.6
Loss = –1.8

Feeling so much better now and it shows in my weigh.  My stomach is not bloated and production :-)  is regular.  Next week I am hoping to go lower than my lowest of 185.  184 sounds like a great number.

Big week around here.  My parents are coming into town to watch the kiddies, which mean I have to CLEAN.  Friday I have to volunteer at the school for the jog-a-thon (if no rain) and then boogie home to shower for my hair and makeup.  I am going all out for the party.  Luckily I have an awesome hair person.  If you are in So Cal I highly highly recommend her.  Then we check into our hotel for the night, the party is at 7pm.  The next day hubby and I are taking a cooking class.  Weird thing I am equally as excited for both events.  But oh course a mother’s work is never done.  Friday night is my son’s special “under the lights” baseball game and potluck. So I have to make a dessert and prep my parents for the the crap.

!0 years married, wow, seems like yesterday.


I put the wrong quantity for my turkey slices.  Here is the correct nutrition info for my Costco lunch.


Monday, April 4, 2011

Lunch Costco Style

and NO not at the food court.

I mentioned before my LOVE for all things Costco.  Maybe it stems back to my childhood, shopping with my mom (Price Club).  Today I picked up a ton of grocery items along with diapers, wipes, and 2 tons of milk.  Seriously I have 6 gallons in the fridge and we will drink it all.


First of all the have a Chobani Greek yogurt variety pack.  Excellent, $11.79, less than $1 each.  I assembled a yummy lunch with some new tortillas I found.


Incredible stats on the tortilla – 80 cals, 3g fat, 18g total carbs, 12 g fiber, 8 g protein.

I don’t use tortillas often since they are usually high cal and carb.  The lower carb ones or whole wheat ones usually don’t work out well.  Not in this case.  These are great, so great I have a hard time describing them.  Think of the perfect doughy, nice sized put together white tortilla and there you have it.

My lunch – 1 tortilla, 3 slices turkey, heaping tbsp hummus, thin sliced English cucumber and sliced tomato all from Costco.


Not bad on the counts.

Friday, April 1, 2011

April Goals

I am struggling.  Today I saw a weight on the scale that I swore I would never see again.  I am not sick but my general well being is off.  I don’t feel right.  I am also bloated and achy.  There is no hormonal reason either.

I would love to put an April goal of 180.  Over 8 pounds from my last weigh in.  To be honest I think that might be too lofty for me considering my current (past month)issues.  184 is one pound less than my lowest of 185 but is almost 5 pound from where I am now.

I would love to say goodbye to the 180’s and jump into the next level of loss.  I just don’t know.

Can you tell I am lacking confidence in my ability to do this.  Am I scared to go beyond where I ever remember being?  Possibly.

April Goals

  • Drink 4 refills of my 24 oz bottle daily
  • exercise 4 times a week
  • adding walking in some form at least twice a week
  • go to Yoga at least 2 times in April
  • Hit 180 pounds

There I said it, it is in writing.  I will do it.