I have always had issues with knowing where I fit. Where I fit on the fat scale? At my heaviest I know I thought I was smaller than I was. At 230 pounds I thought I was just a tad overweight but still fit. Who the hell was I fooling, oh ya ME.
Now I am fitter. Still have a ways to go on the scale but my body is different. I don’t know where I fit. I look at others and think “do I look like her or her”. I am not judging. I am just trying to get my head and reality to sync.
I have no problem with mirrors. TMI – I stand in front of our wall length closet mirrors daily, naked and observe. Sometime pinch the wobbly parts.
Still I can’t figure what I look like. Am I still huge and obese looking. You know big and puffy. I know my face has changed but still. Where am I.
I don’t want to fool myself into thinking I look better than reality.