Friday, December 31, 2010

Year End & HOT 100 Last Date Update

Weight = 192.6
Loss = –2.8 from 12/14/10

Weight loss trend for the 2010image

A loss is a loss right?

I started the year at 215.6 and ended at 192.6.  That’s 23 pounds for the year.  Better than I have ever done but definitely slow progress.

I feel my body shrinking all over.  Even my Mr. feels it.  Why doesn’t my weight reflect it.  I expected more.  Ok, I know my calories were high for most of the most of the month, so is MORE, realistic? NO!

If there was an award for making the most changes (fitness, mental, inches) without changing at all (weight) then I would be the number one contender.  I have been in the 190 to 195 range since the beginning of August, 5 months.

HOT 100 Last Date Update
I can’t believe 100 days are gone.  My baby is 100 days closer to being 2.  I am 100 days older.  100 days passed and I didn’t do much on the weight loss front.

Hot 100 Goals 9/23 to 12/31/10

  • To reach a BMI of 29.9 - Overweight and no longer OBESE. I have to reach 174 pounds. My current weight is 193 (rounding), So I will drop 19 pounds by 12-31-10. That will be a total of 42 pounds for 2010. Revised on 11/16 to 186.0.  Didn’t make either goal.
  • Take 4 inches of my waist measurements  - Start at 48, end at 45.5, dropped 2.5 inches.  Close but not enough.
  • Drink a minimum of 72oz of water daily. Met this one daily

I want to thank Steve at Log my Loss for the challenge.  What I enjoyed the most was meeting new people.  Everyone has a story.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Dear Amy

Lyn from Escape From Obesity had a great New Years idea I want to do here.  Basically write a letter to yourself.
Where you are now (weight, physical condition, how you feel)
What you want to accomplish in 2011
How will you get there?
What do you hope to see for yourself on December 30, 2011? How are you different? How has your life changed?
A note to your future self.
Dear Amy,
I feel strong.  I guesstimate I am around 190, I will find out on 12-31.  My body is morphing with the consistent K-bell exercise.  My stomach is gaining definition and my arms are shrinking.  My legs are even more chickeny then before.  My tummy sides are shrinking and I have indents on the side of my belly.  The belly is still by far your biggest feature.  The definition in the arms is about to come thru.

In 2011 you will hit your goal weight of 140.  That is about a 50 pound loss.  It will be a hard road but 2010 prepared you for it.  2011 will be the final push.  You will get a handle on binging.  The unconscious eating will be under control.  Or even eating when you know you shouldn’t be. 

On Dec 30, 2011 I see a stronger, leaner me.  I see my collarbone, definition in my arms and a smaller stomach.  I see someone who knows how to eat correctly and does so regularly.  I see someone where exercise is a part of her everyday, just like getting dressed.  I will get here by focusing on my eating.  The calories will go way down from where they have been.  Exercise will stay on the same track it has been on, no long breaks.

I have changed.  I am far more aware of how I treat myself all around.  There is room for improvement but I am far better than I was before.  My shape has changed drastically.  Sure I get exhausted and fatigued from the exercise but I love it.  Sure sometimes I will have food challenges along with emotional challenges.

Future self - You knew you could do it and YOU DID.  Trust yourself everyday.
With love,

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Arms in the Air

My arms are in the air admitting defeat.  No I am not giving up.  I am admitting that I NEED to calorie count right now.  I need to get my eating under control and the number one way to do so is with tracking cals, etc.  I vow I won’t get nutty about it.

I have been tracking my food for nearly the last month.  For the last 7 days I did the calorie counts.  Holy bananas.  I had only 1 day under 2000 calories.  A quick glance at the rest of the month and it is apparent I had only one day under 2000 calories.  Even yesterday I thought it was a good day and I was just shy of 2000.

(12/27) B – Coaches Oats w/ flax, protein pwd & 2 tsp sugar.  L - 1.5 srv tortilla chips, Chick Bean Dip (can chick, beans – refried & black, salsa, cheese).  D - Onion roll, 1 slice Havarti, 1/3 lb beef patty, catsup.  S - Milk w/ jRobb protein powder.  Dr - Black SM x2, oolong US x4, water 60 oz.  Cal 1923, 150 g carb, 77 g fat, 151 g protein.

Tonight I used the calorie counting to decide what to eat for dinner.  I wanted to stay under my suggested range of 1500 to 1700.

I did something tonight I have rarely ever done.  I did a full exercise class (K-bell) on the first day of my …….  Usually I am holed up on the couch with zero energy.  I forced myself to go, nearly walked out for a different reason but stuck it out.  I am glad I did.  Not to say that I am not exhausted, I am beat.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Calorie Counting

Why do I detest calorie counting?  I started tracking my calories a few day ago.  I know perfect time of the year to do so.  I realized a few “why’s” of my distaste for counting calories.

It’s like a cold wet slap in the face.  You are eating far worse that you thought.  Although I do realize this a positive thing when it comes to weight loss but …  Then I start second guessing the calories.  “That wasn’t actually a medium slice of sourdough, more like a SMALL”.  So then I start adjust things.  This is where the nutty comes into play.  “The sausage I ate has 2 less grams of fat” and on and on.  NUTSO.  I don’t need to spend my time and energy getting nutty.

I am using Spark People’s site to look up my calories.  I will track my cals.  I am backtracking a week’s worth of food so I do need to spend some time at the computer.

My cheat free day turned out to be where I estimated it was - 1507 cal, 110 g carb, 66 g fat, 116 g protein.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

A Present of Example

I am fat and my 6 year old knows I am fat.

We have a lot of food issues with him.  So many that I won’t bore you with the details.  On a scale of 1-10, 1 being the worst food to give him, we are around a 6.  We have loads of room for improvement.  He is super skinny, 46 pounds and 46 inches.

But I must be doing something right.  On Christmas Eve little man went to Target with my parents.  He decided I need a new Yoga mat for Christmas.  What a great reflection that I am showing him a healthy lifestyle by example.

The last 2 days I overate.  I feel it all over my body.  I also missed exercise.

(12/25) B – Greek frittata w/ mostly egg whites, eng muffin w/ butter. 1/2 cinn roll.  S – serving of choc bar.  L- 1 slice rye, 1 slice havarti, 2 slices turkey, mayo.  D – 1 slice prime rib, scallop pots, some Brussels sprouts, 1/2 loaf sourdough. Dessert – 1/2 mini lava cake with ice cream and whipped cream,  2 glasses wine, black tea S x 4, water 48 oz.

(12/24) B – 1 egg + 2 whites scrambled, 1 English muffin, butter.  L – Cheese steak, fries w/ cheese.  S – PB pretzels, ice cream, pop chips. D – chicken, mushrooms, arti w/ cream & yogurt, 2.5 slices garlic bread.  S – Cookie dough   Dr – black tea SM x2, oolong US, Water 56 oz.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Finally a Cheat Free Day

Yesterday (12/23) was a pretty good day.  I could have improved on breakfast and lightened up on dinner but otherwise it was mostly on plan with no deviations / indulgences.  Yes, overall I need more fruits and veggies.

Today I am not eating so well.

K-Bell class was great.  Technically I can do A push up just not consecutive push ups.  I will get there.

B – Eggo waffle.  L – 2 slices rye, 2 slices Munster, 3 slices turkey, mayo.  S – string cheese, chocolate protein with 1% milk.  D – Tortilla chips, black beans, chicken, peppers, onions, guac, SC.  Dr – black tea SM x2, oolong US x3, water 48 oz.  Ex – K-bell class.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Show Me Your Muscles

You ever have one of those days where you know you shouldn’t do something but you do it anyway.  Why does a 37 year old women still have to fight a child inside her?  I didn’t need a second tortilla filled with Chicken Fajitas,et al and I didn't need to eat the 4 cookies after dinner.

My parents are coming to town tonight.  We have a ton of work today around the house but I am not going to stress it.  It will get done and if it doesn't oh well.  I have some more menu planning a food shopping to do.  Tonight hubby and I are going to k-bell class to get our butts beat. 

NSV (non Scale victory) – I made a BICEP MUSCLE.  You know the move, where you flex your arm to make a bicep muscle.  In the past I could never feel a significant muscle.  My arms have never really been flabby, but never toned.  Hubby laughed at me, in a cute way.

B – Coach’s Oats w/ protein pwd, flax meal. 2 tsp sugar.  S – Costco samples (cheese, tamale, potatoes, ravioli), only 1 each.  L – 2 slices rye, 2 slices Munster, 4 slices turkey, mayo.  D – 2 tortillas, chicken, peppers, onions, beans (black & refried), sc, 1 tsp guac, cheese and tortilla chips.  S – hot cocoa, apples with PB dip, 4 butter cookies.  Dr – Tea SM, herbal tea SM - 2x Water 48 oz.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Rain, Rain Go Away

I think I may be more affected by the sun than I think.  I live in sunny southern California.  For the last 6 days in has been raining nearly non-stop.  It has been dumping well over an inch a day.  Our soil, if that’s what you want to call it, can’t adsorb all the rain.  Everything is flooded, dry creek beds are now torrential rivers, my backyard is a lake.  Point is I have been having major trouble sleeping.  I can’t figure it out.

Yesterday was a crazy day.  The potluck play date lunch was at 11 am super close to when I had breakfast.  I was stuffed.  Most of the day I felt that way.  The boy scouts made their own pizza today at a local joint.   I decided to buy myself a French bread boat piazza.  I shared with another mom, we at about 3:30 pm.  I felt stuffed again.  K-Bell class is at 6:15m so I wasn’t going to eat anymore before class. 

My body is beat.  K-bell class on Monday was insane and then last night added to the pain.  Even though last night we spend more time on technique, it still made me sweat.  There is few parts on my body that DON’T hurt.

Hubby said my arms are thinner and more toned.  I don’t think my weight is lower.  At this point I will be surprised if I see a loss on 12.31.  I am pretty sure I will be below that insane high of 195 but I don’t think I will break thru the 190 barrier.  My eating habits of late are not indicative of a loss.

B – Kashi Go lean crunch w/ Milk.  L – sm bagel w/ cream cheese & cranberries, banana chip muffin, apples with PB dip (cream cheese, PB, brown sugar).  S/D – French bread Hi style pizza 80% of it.  D – Chicken chili – just beans, chicken, corn and salsa, more apples with peanut butter.   Dr – Tea SM x2, water 65 oz

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

A Sweaty mess

There was a kid party with pizza on Monday.  I left before the pizza arrived since El Diablo was done (almost 2 hrs past naptime).  Pizza is a super duper red lighter for me.  Today I have a holiday potluck play date for toddler.  I plan bring some tea with me.  I will consciously eat.  I get into trouble when I don’t think about what or how much I eat.

I have to do some menu planning for the parents visit and the holidays.  I plan on taking a stab at Prime rib for Christmas, a new one for me.  Tomorrow I am trying a new crock pot chicken chili. 

Since hubby went out with friends I was only able to attend the kettlebell class, not the kickboxing.  Let’s just say I was a sweaty mess.  Paul (the trainer) kicked out butts.  I almost felt like puking.  It’s the first time in a long time where I feel I am getting the most of a group exercise class.  I did no-knee push ups many times.  I am not at the point where I consider it a full push up.  A full push up to me is where you nearly touch the ground with your chest like below.

pushup B – Bacon, onion, tom quiche, avoided 70% of the crust.  L- ~1C goldfish, mozz cheese, Campbell's Select Harvest Tomato bisque (2 srv).  S – D – smoothie – 1.2 banana, 1 lg scoop natural PB, 1 scoop chocolate protein, 2 scoops Greek yogurt splash of milk, 3 slices of rye with butter.  Dr – black tea SM x2, oolong x3, 72 oz water.  Ex – Kettlebell class

Eval on food – I was a bit too full at lunch not stuffed.  I could have pulled back of the portions and felt better.  I defiantly could have avoided the rye toast with butter.  But honestly it was yummy.  I had both the smoothie and bread after K-bell class late in the pm.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Returning to Normal

Finally starting to feel normal.  Had a great night sleep.  Only one interruption.  I woke up at 4:30 am and had a hard time going back to be.  I think my body was expecting to have to wake up.  I did get up with the baby at 5:30 am but we both went back down.  I have a ton to do in the next few days so I need to be on my A game.

We have a break in the rain.  I had to convince my 6yo we should go out today.  We have been home most of the last 2 days.  The only thing that sold it was that some friends will be at the indoor gym party.

I plan to do double exercise tonight Kettlebell and Cardio kickboxing.  we will see if the universe allows it.  Yesterday I wanted to do a class in the am but both kids had another rough night on Sat.

My girlfriend and I watched the documentary “Dirt” last night.  It was informative and entertaining.  I want to do more formal composting.  We just throw our garbage under some dirt.

B – Lg slice Banana bread.  L – Potato Soup (last night), ~3/4 C cookie dough, 2 spoons full mac & cheese. S – 2 low cal WW, grey poupon, 3 slices havarti  D – smoked turkey sausage w/ zuc, toms & onions   Dr – black tea SM x2, oolong x4, herbal x1, water 24oz. Ex - none

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Food Journal

I tried.  Blogger doesn’t allow individual posts on the extra pages.  At least that’s what I found.  I will be putting my food log on here.  It will be short and sweet so to not to bore anyone.  I will be abbreviating so I will add a sidebar.  I will post the next day.  I mostly work on the computer in the am.  Since I don’t write something everyday, there may be days where all I have is my food list.

1C of tea is about 18oz, I have big mugs
SM – Tea with milk and sugar, ~ 1 tsp sugar per cup
US  - Unsweetened tea
(B) – Binge in my opinion, ate too many, didn’t stop
(S) – Felt stuffed, ate too much
Dr – Drinks
Ex - Exercise
2X – 2 large cups
WW = Whole wheat bread

(12/18) B - Coach's Oats w/ flax & 2 tsp sugar, 4 turkey sausage.  L - 2 slice Low Cal WW, 2 slice havarti, 2 slice turkey, grey poupon.  S - large slice banana bread, 2 srv PopChips.  D - potato soup, add cheese, bacon & asparagus (S).  10 butter cookies (B).  Dr - Black tea SM 2x, oolong 2x US, ~24 oz water. Ex - none

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Food Journal, Saturday Musings, etc

The last 2 weeks I have been working with our Kettlebell trainer.  We have been discussing goals and a “To Do” list to reach our goals.  I say “our” because he is helping hubby and I both.
The first thing he wants us to do is write down everything we eat.  Basically he won’t know what to change until he know what there is TO change.  Now, I know this goes against what I believe in but I am willing to do this so I can break thru my 190 roadblock and get my weight loss moving in the right direction in 2011.  I want to reach my ultimate goal weight in 2011.  Wow, I wrote it down.

I have actually been writing down my food for about the last 2 weeks.  It’s not making me crazy.  I think it’s when I track cals, etc that the crazy comes out to play.

I want to put my food log on the blog.  However I don’t want to bore you with the details.  Logging my food here was never my intention for this blog.  So I will try to use the page tab for my food log.  We will see if it works.

Scale hiatus is going well.  I was tempted today but I stopped myself.

I had this great plan for Saturday am.  i was going to get up and take the kids with me to Cardio kickboxing (7:45 am) and possibly Kettlebell class (7 am).  Then I was going to pay a sitter so I could finish some shopping and then a yoga class.  The Diablo had other plans.

Back story – both my kids have sensitive gag reflexes.  There has been times where El Diablo will upchuck his bottle of milk for no reason.  He did this Friday morning, so I thought no big deal.  About 1.5 hours (12:30am ish) after I fell asleep Fri night he woke up crying (ouch for me).  I tried to just sit in the room and let him put himself to bed.  Hubby wasn’t happy with it so he made a bottle.  20 min later, upchuck, I stayed in his bedroom, sick again later, finally he fell asleep only to wake again at 5am.  I tried a small bottle, sick again and fought going back to bed with a mega watt tantrum, including throwing things.  Back down for about an hour until 7:30am.  So I rightly cancelled the sitter in case he is sick.  Not sure, he ate breakfast with no problems and the activity level is normal.
Sometimes it seems like the universe wants to blow my plans,  I believe in Karma and try to behave accordingly.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Scale Hiatus

As scary as it is to me I have decided I am taking a scale hiatus.  I will be asking hubby to hide it.  OK, so maybe I don't have to be that extreme.  But I decided I will not step on the dam lovely thing until 12/31/10.  I need to see where my HOT 100 numbers are on 12/31 and I need to see how I will be beginning my New Year.

I will be skipping 2 Tuesday weigh ins.

I am scared.

So I sound crazy.  But with all the issues I have been having I worry that 12/31 will equal 200 pound or more.

For the next 2+ weeks I will:
drink my water and decaf tea
attend Kettlebell Class 2-3 days per week
hill walk on my buddy (treadmill) 2 or more days
attend Cardio Kickboxing at least 1x or more
work on having better eating days*
attend a yoga class (hopefully, it's been too long)

*Lately my days are 70% good and 30% not so much.  I want to reach the point where I have a good full day or more.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Greek Frittata Recipie

I adore this recipe.  It originates from Real Simple magazine but I have made some modifications.  It is a great way to get your veggies in and be low carb.  You can eat this anytime of the day.  It's my go to for breakfast / brunch buffets.

Greek Frittata - 4 servings
• 3 tablespoons olive oil
• 10 large eggs - I use mostly egg whites with 1-5 full eggs or a carton of real eggs*
• 2 teaspoons kosher salt
• 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
• I have been adding an Onion Onion mix from Tastefully Simple - Yum
• 1 5-ounce bag baby spinach
• 1 pint grape tomatoes, halved
• 4 scallions (white and green parts), thinly sliced, you can skip
• 8 ounces feta, crumbled

*If you use more egg whites or the carton of eggs it takes longer to cook.

1. Heat oven to 350° F.
2. Add the oil to a 2-quart casserole and transfer to oven for 5 minutes.  I use a 9x13 baker sometimes.
3. Meanwhile, in a bowl, whisk together the eggs, salt, and pepper. Add the spinach, tomatoes, and scallions and combine. Gently stir in the feta.
4. Remove casserole from oven. Pour the egg mixture into casserole. Bake until the frittata is browned around the edges and slightly puffed and a knife comes out clean, 25 to 30 minutes. I noticed the time take a lot longer depending on what kind of eggs you use.

Nutrition Info - From the magazine.  Egg white modification will change the numbers.  Usually it makes more than 4 servings for me.  More like 6 or 8.
Calories 461; Calories From Fat 68%; Fat 35g; Sat Fat 4g; Cholesterol 579mg; Sodium 1,868mg; Carbohydrate 8g; Fiber 2g; Sugar 5g; Protein 26g
Real Simple, September 2006


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Weekly Weigh In 12/14/10

Weight = 195.4
Loss = +3.4


It was ugly.  I feel like a fraud.  I will get over it.

After a good sob and a ton of anger I sat down and thought about the why.  I have never had this much trouble with the scale.  I don't understand it.  I am frustrated.  Over 3 pounds is crazy.  I feel it everywhere.

My thoughts!!

The Cleanse
Maybe the Jillian Michael's Detox is doing a number on my body.  I know its doing a number on my bottom half.

Water retention
TMI - I know I am retaining water.  I wore a bra for 20 min the am.  I took it off to shower and I had a huge red welt underneath.  The welt was there for a better part of the next 1/2 hour.  My tummy is bloated and puffy.

My intensity and time skyrocketed.  Maybe this is also playing a game with my body.  The Kettlebells are strength training and cardio.

Ok so I haven't been a 100% perfect.  Who the hell is.  But all year I was never 100% perfect and I still lost weight.  I have been writing what I eat for the last week.  No counts just a general list.

I am going to keep on trucking.  Continue with the exercise, water, work on the food.  The cleanse ends tomorrow so maybe next week will be completely different (better).  I just don't know right now.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Monday Meanderings

After my last post I decided to not step on the scale Sun or today.  My Tuesday weigh in is completely up in the air.  I am scared.  It could be ugly.

After 5 straight days of heavy exercise I rested on Friday and unintentionally took Saturday off.  Sunday I managed to hit the treadmill for 30 min.  It was interrupted multiple times by the mini peni in the house.  Tonight is Kettlebells.

Why is it when you eat something off the healthy scale like a bagel with cream cheese you want more?  But when you eat something on the healthy scale like, egg whites or oatmeal you are satisfied and don't need / want more food.  Today I had a bagel with cream cheese.  It was delish but I wasn't satisfied.  I wanted another (didn't).  I imagine I could probably eat 3 without thought.  When I eat my normal breakfast I don't get this way.  Is is a carb thing?  Do those carbs play that many tricks on my head or body for that matter?

Why is hard to drink water when the weather is colder?  Not that its cold here, it's over 80 degrees on Dec 13th.

Our new computer is still waiting to be set up.  Can someone find me 4 or more uninterrupted hours to get the thing set up and all our stuff transferred.  I did manage to get it unpacked and set on the desk.  Mind you I was able to do this after sweeping all the crap on the desk into a box.

I have no idea what to get a get my hubby who is wants for nothing.  He is a simple guy with simple demands.  Plus he is thrifty.  He wants big ticket items.  Like a boat.

Nothing is cuter than a toddler (in diaper) and a nearly 7yo (in underwear) playing with the hose.  Love it.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Can't Throw in the Towel

I am a habitual scale stepper.  There I admitted it.  In the 330 days (11 months), and 195 posts, I have been blogging about my weight loss journey I habitually step on the scale.  My official weigh in day is Tuesdays, unless I am out of town.  During my week I may step on the scale 2 to 5 more times during the week.  I didn't put too much stock in the other weigh ins.  Just a quick check - "ok still on track" or "cool look at that number" or "yeah, those food choices weren't great".

Until this month The scale reflected my efforts with exercise and food.  I knew it was an honest reflection.  I was accepting of what I saw.

I mentioned earlier I am frustrated with the scale this month week.  Some suggestions were to ignore the scale, continue what you are doing.  The main voice in the suggestions was my hubby.  Even today I can't throw in the towel.  I stepped on the scale and I wanted to chuck it thru the window.  3 pounds up from yesterday and there is no hormonal excuse for that.  I haven't seen 195 in forever - WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like if I forget the scale I will balloon up 20 pounds instantly.

I am pissed, frustrated and let's not forget dead on my feet AGAIN.  I went scrapbooking last night.  Got home past midnight, in bed around 1am.  Baby woke at 1:20 am, then again around 3am (can't remember), hubby up a 4am for work and baby up at 6:15 am for the day.  Why is it when you need sleep from enjoying yourself, the kids inevitably decide to be turkeys in the middle of the night.  I am seriously thinking it is not worth it for me to go out late at night.  At least not the days hubby is working.  Which for the next 3 days I am basically solo with the 2 kids.  No rest for the Wicked.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Hot 100 Update - Week 11

I am kicking ass.  Well, sort of.  I kicked up my exercise routine big time.  This is my week so far.
Sun = 50 hill walk on treadmill
Mon = 45 kettlebell class
Tue = 45 kettlebell class
Wed = 50 hill walk on treadmill
Thur = 45 min kettlebell class AND 60 min cardio kick boxing class

I probably burned 800 calories last night.  I did both classes at my full speed.  I had very few modifications.  I took a few mini breaks during the bag punching and kicking (I was exhausted).  I feel great today, a bit tired (didn't sleep well). 

The scale hasn't budged since Tuesday.  I expect more from it.  My eating is vastly improving but not 100% yet.  For the sake of full disclosure, I have been taking Jillian Michaels Detox and Cleanse for 3 days (4 left).  You perform the cleanse along with a regular diet.  I was hoping it will kick start me for the holiday crunch.

Water - excellent.  I drank 48 oz during and after my workout last night along the with rest of my water for the day.

Waist - about 1.5 inches to go.  I think I will make this goal. 

Weight = still around 192.  Something crazy will have to happen for me to hit 186.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Sleep Derailment

I swear nothing derails me more than sleep deprivation.  In my ripe old age of 37, sleep has become very important.  Especially now when I am in the middle of a new exercise program and ramp up.*  I need the recovery sleep. 

Last night was rough with El Diablo toddler (21 months).  He woke up crying around 11 pm.  We were still up having a good talk.  Diablo woke with a smelly diaper (odd) which had turned into a painful rash.  We tried for an hour to get him back down.  Eventually ( time?), he ended up restlessly sleeping in our bed.  At points I had feet kicking me or a body laying on my head.  He woke up about 5am and then roughly snoozed for another hour.

when I am sleep deprived, the first thing I want to turn to is food.  I want it to make me feel better, take away the headache, wrap me with comfort and warmth.  But, those foods I want to turn to are laced with sugar and carbs.

I feel like a train wreck and it's only 8:30am.  The hubby and the Diablo are cranky.  The To Do list is hefty.  The big boy is bugging for a tree and Christmas decor - none of which have been done.  Wish me luck.

* Exercise
Hubby and I committed to 6 months of professional Kettlebell classes.  This week so far:
Sun = 50 hill walk on treadmill
Mon = 45 min Kettlebell class
Tue = 45 min Kettlebell class
Wed = 50 min hill walk on treadmill
Thur = planned 45 min Kettlebell class at 6pm

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Weekly Weigh In 12/7/10

Weight = 192.0
Loss = -1.4

This holiday season is a bit harder than I thought it would be.  Getting and staying on track has proved to be very difficult.  My emotions are getting the best of me and when I get emotional I want to turn to food for comfort.  Yesterday I was really feeling like a fraud.  I haven't been very successful in the last few months.  I haven't gain but I haven't lost much either.  Yes, I know that not gaining is successful, but I have too far to go to be stalled right now.

I decided yesterday to start writing everything I put in my mouth.  No counting.  It might be a way to get my health back in focus.

I want to say more but I don't have the time.  I have been running out of time to blog and that bugs me.  Blogging keeps me on track in many ways.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Numbers (Hot 100 update)

Where am I now?  An update of sorts to get me to the end of year.  I set some Hot 100 goals about 90 days ago, so I will use those as a guideline.  The goals are for 12/31/10.

Goal #1 = 186 pounds (adjusted)
I haven't checked in a few days but I am lower than my Tuesday weight.  Somewhere around 191.  I have a way to go here.  I REALLY want to see a 18X by the end of the year.

Goal #2 = lower waist from 48 inches to 44.
I measured 45 3/8 today.  Almost there.  My waist and hips are the only place I lost inches since early September.  I actually gained an inch in my upper thigh (9" above knee).  That's ok, I am at 23 inches there, still pretty small.

Goal #3 = 72 oz water daily
Faltering here with the colder weather.  Mistake, I know.  My total liquid intake is probably still above 72oz but it is a combo of tea and water.  Needs to be just water.

Two nice compliments today.  One about Thursday's Kettle Bell class.  Friend noticed I caught on quick and used great form.  I'll take it.  Two was my friend who took my measurements.  When I was surprised my thighs got bigger, she said the were already super small and if they get smaller I won't be able to stand up.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Week Recap and an NSV

It has been crazy here.  I haven't posted since Tuesday and that is not like me.

Part of the crazy started on Tuesday when toddler (on Mr's watch) washed my contacts down the drain.  This is a BIG problem for me.  I wear hard contacts like 90% of my day and I am blind as a bat.  My glasses are not strong enough to give me the same clarity as my contacts.  It takes 3 days to get a new pair of contacts.  I was in a fog for those days.  It reminds me how much my sight is a handicap for me.

I didn't get to do my inches - busy.  Hopefully sometime this weekend.

My NSV (non scale victory)
Last night hubby and I went on a date night.  Our date night consisted of our first kettle bell class, beer and food while sitting an an actual bar (never happens anymore w/ kids), and the a quick trip to Lowe's to look at bathroom stuff.  The kettle bell class was interesting.  Since hubby and I are newbies the instructor focused on us and teaching us the very basics of form.  It was still aerobic and we both broke a sweat in the 45 min class.  Hubby had a hard time with the form.  He couldn't get it right.  He was also huffing and puffing.  Me - got the form down pretty quickly and very little huffing.  Today hubby is whiny about how sore he is.  Me - nothing.  Yes, physically he can kick my butt and does things I can't (push ups, pull ups, longer running) but last night is was clear I have a much higher fitness level then him.  Whoo hoo.

We decided what to do with our $200.  We are going to invest in more Kettle bell classes.  It is something we can do together - bonus.  The kids can hangout at the class - it is inside a preschool tumbling room (sweet).  Eventually we can take what we learn and invest in kettle bell for home.

Food is still an issue for me right now. 

Bonus - we finally got a new computer.  I will probably be spending a better part of weekend getting it set up.  So excited.