I wanted to give a proper response to all the awesome comments I received in my mirror post.
A few of you mentioned emotional eating. What first stuck me was "that was not emotional eating". I wasn't having specific emotions at the time. Then I thought about it more and the light bulb went off. When I get overwhelmed with my job (Stay at home Mom) I shutdown, ok check. Hubby's observation was shutdown = crappy eating, ok check two. Emotional eating, well I am stressed. I guess I never equated stress with an emotional response. I also never realized I stress equals I eat. I know when I am depressed, sad, etc, I eat poorly. Silly.
I try not be be OCD perfectionist. I'm lucky if I manage to get anything done, so who has the time to be perfect about it. I do beat myself up with the whole motherhood thing. I feel like I am failing my kids. I could write a whole post how I feel like a failure and I just might do that. My 18 month old is kicking my ass. I love him to death and it some aspects he is an easy baby but in others he is a holy tornado. I spend 70% of my time just trying to keep up (clean after) with him. I am also adjusting to the new school schedule, soccer 2x a week, boy scouts and a dance class for the 6 year. I do all my own stunts. Which means unlike many other moms I know, I clean my own house, garden my own lawn, do my laundry.
My husband is a keeper but definitely not flawless. Like many men, he doesn't finish what he starts. He also wants to do all the work himself because he wants to learn and he is thrifty (I'm being kind). My guest bath has been unfinished for 4 years or more, I lost count. New floors in March 2010, baseboards 60% up and unfinished. The piles of pavers in backyard that were supposed to be small retaining wall, about 5 years sitting there. Large missing sections of drywall in master bathroom (leak detection), 2 years. Painting and baseboards in oldest room, unfinished, 3 years. Does this stress me out, absolutely. Do I get embarrassed about the condition of my house, you bet.
So this may seem like a boo hoo post. It is, but I think I just need to get some crap off my chest and move on. A second post to get all the crap off could be in the works. I know how damm lucky I am to be home with my kids, heck to even have a house to worry about taking care of. I also know that many working moms do all the crap I do and work full time. Although, when you work full time there is no one at the house making a mess. We are home very often and my hubby is home 4 days a week (w/ no OT). Please don't think of me as a spoiled whiny brat, I just need to vent.