Weight = 199.8
Loss = + 1.4
I expected this. I am pissed and feel like quitting, but why? It's not like I did the work to have a loss. It would be valid to be upset if I actually did what was required to drop weight. I have had lots of wine and food this month. Wine probably turns straight to sugar in my messed up body.
Don't worry I am not quitting but I am still mad at myself for what I did. I am thinking about not setting specific goals in June. I suffer from self sabotage. If I get close to a goal I have a tendency to screw it up. I wonder if there is a book out there for me. I really have to think about this one before I decide if I want to set a goal.
I am also begining to realise I have an issues with binging. Let me tell you about yesterday. I ate breakfast way too late which consisted of an attempt of poaching 2 eggs (I ate about 75%) and 2 slices of light wheat bread with butter and 1 slice with Jam. For lunch I had a Jersey Mikes regular club sub with all the trimmings (1120 cal, 80 g fat, 58g carbs) and ruffles (320 cal, 22g fat, 28g carbs), to top off that feast I stuffed myself with almost a whole sleeve of fig newtons (550 cal, 10g fat, 110g carbs). I ate in one meal more calories than my body needs in one day. I felt yucky for most of the rest of the day. For dinner I had beans, salsa and sour cream with chips. I also had about 2 glasses of wine.