Start Weight 206.4 (on 3/2) - high from overeating before
End Weight 202.6 (on 3/30)
Loss 3.8 *
* not really a true loss since I was lower at the end of Feb.
This was a very hard month for me. My head was not in the right place to start out. If I were to label it, I was depressed and pissed. My eating was out of control. I have actually been considering looking into Overeater Anonymous. There are situations were I eat out of control. Blazing red light situations for me is where food is laid out for free munching, like at a party, etc. I eat and eat even though my head is telling me to stop. I have to try everything, right? It would be rude not too. Phooey to that. Do I eat to avoid socializing? I am a former super shy and awkward teen / young adult. I also had super super low self confidence and esteem. Many friends now would never believe I was super shy (etc) back in the day. It took me many years to come out of my shell and be confident with ME. Well shyness and poor esteem (etc) are still in there. Many times I feel like an awkward social talker. I feel like I am pushy, awkward, imposing and weird. So do I stuff my face to avoid talking to people? Or maybe to avoid being a bit bored too? Oh yeah and I LOVE food so where there is new exciting food, I want it.
My depression and poor attitude is apparent in my exercise. I exercised only 14 of 31 days (45%) and some of those days it was piss poor exercise. I am lucky I didn’t gain 10 pounds with what I did. I basically maintained my loss from February. I know April will be better. I am formulating some goals to help me get back on track and solidly in ONEderland.